Spiraling Up

Spiral up, y'all.

Spiral up.

One of the most healing things about...well...Healing is getting out of the Narrative of: Something is Wrong With You.

I write here for the 3AM Moments.

For the People who will find this at 3AM

To let them know that Their Ugly is Matched.
And Their Beauty is Matched.
And Their Wild is Matched.
And Their Anger is Matched.
And Their Confusion is Matched.
And Their Longing is Matched.

Things that Help Me Through:
Compassion somehow always allows for my brain to get to an Action-Oriented State of Being
Where I no longer hide within myself
And feel unworthy of love
Unworthy of sharing

I see my Healing as a Creative and Courageous Act.

I see my Healing as a Contribution.

Because I know that I am not the Only Slutty Queer Korean-American Multi-Hyphenate Musician Singer Writer Actor Unboxable Artist Born of Parents Whose Parents Never Went to Therapy Who I Wish Did. And also I know my Voice is Singular that is why it must be spoken and not hidden. That is why I am thankful to those who speak. Artists like Zoe Kim. Renee Rapp. Angelina Jolie. Nina Simone. Every Artist I respect is thankful to Nina Simone because I know we know she spoke her truth down to the BONE and she did not allow for the industry or for society to gaslight her. And she was protected by the gifts God gave her. And I think I feel that same way. I feel protected by the gifts God gave me.

My heart is full of goodness and love. My body is full of appetite and nuance. And also trauma. So much trauma. Trauma that I work on everyday to heal and regulate and alchemize into something useful. This is where I thank God for my Gifts.

Because when I alchemize, I feel the purification: like a Himalyan Salt Lamp.

I guess I just don't believe in being the Artist who only shares the Highlight Reel. I believe in being the Artist who was Transparent in how my Crystal formed.

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