Dear God, January 18, 2025 12:49PM
I am sorry I am a rotten spoiled person. I am trying. Trying very hard to figure all of this out. This whole life thing. I really am. Trying to figure out how to be human. How to make this work. And does being human even work? Does being human work? I know as an Artist part of my job is to create Heaven on Earth - that is why our Energy is important. That is why I feel so much magic in Touch, and in who I am with. As an Artist, we are also a Reflection of Our Times. And People are Hurt and People are Scared. So I feel that I am the Blended Colors of the Reflection of Our Times and the Need for Safety and Fear of Rejection and Desire for Touch and Yearn for Excitement and My Own Queen and I Seek My Own Daddy and I Make My Prayers Public Because I am always thinking of Death and the Journal I Leave Behind. I seek a Platform. I have a Platform. I am a Platform. I am present with my Platform. I asked my Tarot Cards yesterday if it was time for me to get back on Social Media, and it literally told me: “NO.” So I save my energy and I am nursing and trusting and follow in the footsteps of Yayoi Kusama. And I continue to make weird things in my Studio. And put up Videos at my Leisure. And Sonic Ritualism at my Leisure. And tend to the Pleasure of My Practice at my Leisure. In the Asylum of my Own Making. Because this is Divine Pleasure Tending. As Empathy Cam Girl. As Empathy Cat Girl. As Shovels' Parent. As A Pleasure Domme. As a Tender Root. As an Outlier Who is Responsible for Vulnerability and Is A Professional At Vulnerability. It's Up to Me to Change the Narrative on Whether I am Prey or Product or Professional or Energy. I've Survived Being Prey. I've Survived Being Star. I've Survived Being Professional. I'm Energy Now. A Player - who Prays. To remember to: ENJOY THE JOURNEY. Even in the midst of the STORM. Enjoy the Journey. And I can feel the trauma of what was done to me leave my body - the things that I KNOW weren't my fault. That Trapped Me in Myself. That No One Else Could Possibly Understand. And Yayoi Kusama followed her Creative Source. And I follow. The Dark Feminine Growl. And I Roar. And Make Beauty. And Love. And Whatever I feel called to. And I learn what Freedom feels like.
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